Sometimes it can feel like the entire world is at odds with each other, can't it? Yet our children are the greatest at loving and accepting everyone!
Would you think I’m awfully proud if I called Amanda’s Patch a “Grade A” place?
I can tell you now that I do not mean it in the usual sense of the word, although I would like to think that some of my readers might rank Amanda’s Patch up there, deserving of an ‘A’ once in a while! But the ‘A‘ stands for much more…
It stands for “affordable” and how I am trying to create the reality of my dreams at an affordable price. And I don’t only mean in terms of finances, although they do play a big part. With coming out of work I essentially cut our teeny, weeny budget down by more than half – scary stuff, and it means that budgeting will continue to be one of the most important skills that I possess. Yes, Amanda’s Patch is about being affordable in the financial sense of the word, of course it is, but there are other ways that it is affordable.
Time, for instance. Time is a funny thing – I never seem to have enough of it, and even now that I am at home rather than going out to work, my time seems to be filled with all manner of other things, like trying to make a mark for myself and Amanda’s Patch, and going back to basics to make more of my own things instead of relying on the convenience of popping down the shops to buy what I think I need.
And then there’s energy… I expected to have quite a bit more energy by now, having been out of work for 3 months already, but it is a slow process. Anyone with a chronic illness will be able to tell you how exhausting it is to regularly have something draining away your energy resources – I might not have the flu or a cold or stomach bug each day, but my body does suffer from cramps if I eat the wrong thing or over exert myself in ways that wouldn’t bother another person, and my hormones rage havoc with my sleeping and eating patterns sometimes.
So, you see, Amanda’s Patch is also about finding a way to live my dream in an affordable way in far more terms than stretching my financial budget.
And then there are the other ‘A’, those of awareness, acceptance and achievement…
Achievement seems to go hand in hand with the affordable part of my life – what I can achieve has changed a lot in the past few years. As a pretty much “straight-A” student, I was on track to achieve great things in terms of my career – I had a degree, I was working my way up the career ladder slowly but surely, I applied myself and knew that, had I wanted to, I could have worked my way quite a long way further up that ladder… but was it worth the expense?
With my health getting progressively worse, the cost of that achievement to both my physical and emotional health seemed too great. So I left, giving up the chance to achieve in that field – but that didn’t mean I had to give up my sense of achievement completely. No, Amanda’s Patch is all about adapting to situations and circumstances (there you are, yet another ‘A’ word) and aiming for something that gives you a sense of great achievement that is within your ability (all these ‘A’ words – it is hard to keep track!) You could even say that it is all about ambition…
I was once told by a lecturer at university that I wasn’t ambitious enough, which goes to show just how hard it can be to see the real person sometimes, because anyone who truly knows me will realise just what a crazy thought that is – ambition oozes from me, it just doesn’t always fit in with the kind of ambition that people expect. I have a dream about being happy, about being healthy, about helping others and inspiring them too. I have hopes that this site will become a warm, safe place to visit, a nice little retreat from the stresses of everyday life. I want to help the world, in any way I can, knowing that even the tiniest thing I do helps to tip the balance in some way. If that isn’t ambition, then I don’t know what is!
So, you see, achievement doesn’t have to be about being the best or creating that perfect finish – achievement is about setting a dream within your own capacities and going for it. After all, we can’t all be olympic athletes, but we can be so much more in other ways…
Which leads me on to my third and fourth ‘A‘s, both linked together very closely – awareness and acceptance.
There are many things that I have become aware of in recent years, including the multitude of challenges that people have to face, and their amazing and heart-breakingly beautiful strength and courage in overcoming them. For me, the worst part of this is knowing how many people suffer alone, silently trapped by the fact that their particular struggle is far from fully understood by those around them, even professionals in the field. Yes, I am talking about chronic illnesses and how many people out there suffer from these, unable to deal with the demands of everyday life, thanks to a lack of awareness about their struggle. I’ve been there, and it is a lonely place sometimes, even with the people you love because often it is impossible to put how you feel into words. Which is why I am so forthright and honest about it all – if I can help just one person by talking about these things, then that is awareness enough.
Of course, I would love to build awareness for so many things, so many causes I have heard of, not just in the health field but also in connection to the earth and our modern lifestyle. So many people are getting sick thanks to the pollutants we accept as normal, the chemicals we spray without a thought, the stress we put ourselves under in order to meet the demands of keeping our house safe and warm, the list just goes on… I do not want to preach, as I am far from perfect myself, but I do want to spread awareness, and by sharing the thoughts I have and the things I do I hope to achieve this somehow…
And what does that have to do with my final ‘A‘ word? Well, acceptance is a hard thing. If something affects you deeply, accepting it can be difficult – I know that I struggled (and still do) to come to terms with my Endometriosis and how it affects my life. I struggle to accept the facts of life sometimes too, that bad things do indeed happen and there is often nothing I can do about it – whilst I may try to make a difference, sometimes acceptance is more important. Trying not to judge harshly and accept something “as is” can be difficult and finding the balance between knowing when to fight and when to accept something can be the hardest thing in the world. Yes, acceptance is difficult, but I will always attempt to see what I need to accept, even if that is my own short-comings.
So, you see, Amanda’s Patch really is a “Grade A” place – I wasn’t just trying to blow my own trumpet! I am sure there are far more ‘A‘s out there too and I shall keep my eye (and my heart) open for them. Until then, why not leave me a comment to let me know what your own personal ‘A‘ words are?